Struggling with my life, I need help?

Matt, Im sorry to hear that your peers are so filled with self-loathing and that they are so self centered that they cant make time for anyone but themselves. I know that you are at a very volatile time in your life, believe me, I was there too. And you gotta know that where you are at is neither the beginning, nor the end. It's just a short blip in history, my friend. Reading your question, I felt as if I was reading a page from my personal journal years ago. I too was in the EXACT same situation that you are in now. I was mocked by those who were supposed to be my friends. I had a very hard time finding any girl who would even speak to me, much less date me. There was nothing I wanted more than to be loved and accepted by those around me. And as hard as I tried, that love and acceptance just didn't seem to be on the horizon. I was bullied by people that other people had dubbed "wimps" and "nerds". I was even laughed at and mocked by them as well. I finally gave up trying. I had decided that if I wasn't good enough for them, then that's their problem. After all I had tried and thought of, I was still left out in the cold. So I turned my attentions to the things that those people had no part in. I became my own man, completely independent from my peers and their self-centered issues. The funny thing is, that after I had completely seperated myself from them and I no longer had a need, nor a desire to gain their approval, they started coming to me! And while I refrained from being best friends with any of them, I remembered what it's like to be shunned and left behind. So I decided to step up and be a better man. I had a rough ride, just like you are, Matt. But my suffering has made me a good man. It's made me more aware of the suffering and sadness of others. And because of that, I can undo all the pain that those peers of mine did to me and everyone like me. And the whole ugly, thing; toss that out of the room, man. Ugly don't mean much at all, truth be told. Three years ago, I ran across a beautiful redhead who fell in love with me not because I was good looking, popular or the center of the universe. She fell in love with me because I'm kind to those around me. Because I know that others hurt and I work hard to ease that suffering. She fell for me because I was what all those other people were not. Because I was a real, honest person, who desires to do well and never ever repeat the mistakes that were made to me.